5 months ago, I was advised to start writing a journal or a blog to help improve my life. Not only does writing have a very therapeutic nature to it, it allows for a creative and effective means of self expression. This past 5 months has been a great journey for me. I can only say it has been at times the hardest time in my life, but at the same time I have discovered things about myself and life that have only and will only make things better in the future. These are all the things that the experience of blogging my way out of a black hole has given me.
Blogging has given me an outlet of Self Expression – It wasn’t until I started blog writing that I realised how much self expression was really missing from my life. I have always been a quiet and shy person, but I have always had opinions and things to say. In my situation overseas, I had limited people to express myself to as well as the fact that the only person whom I could express myself to on a daily basis, discouraged me from having an opinion differing to his. This made me timid to self express and to really thinking for myself and this blog has given me that internal power back.
Blogging has made me connected to the world like I never have before – With blogging, you get to know people by their experiences. Real life, you only find out their secret sorrows and life altering and defining experiences after you know someone a long time. Reading the blogs of others as given me a valuable insight to my fellow bloggers and a greater understanding of others. Greater understanding of what is beneath the surface.
Blogging has allowed me to understand my own life more – looking back at some of my first posts over 5 months ago, I was in a completely different place mentally and emotionally. The things I understand about my situation now, I didn’t when first writing this. I essentially have written my way out of a black hole, with a greater understanding of those around me, only achieved by the written word.
Blogging has connected me to a community of people who share a similar story – Going through an experience of being with someone narcissistic would have been a lonely journey without the blogging community and those blogs and people. So much of their stories, mirror my own, which has allowed me to understand exactly what happened in a step by step format. It has also given me a tremendous amount of support, where otherwise there would have been none that could understand on a personal level. The sharing of stories and experiences ultimately connects you on a deeper level. I have also found that the blogging community has been one of the most inclusive communities I have ever felt part of. I’ve had a number of people offer up their emails or to contact them if I ever needed them, which flaws me as to how nice some people in the world are. I’ve also never had anyone say a bad or ill word towards me or anything I am saying. I oddly don’t feel lonely very often, I thought in this situation I would, but oddly I don’t.
Blogging has made me view my life and the world differently – Blogging has made me notice things more. In wanting to update somewhat frequently, it makes me think about things more, notice things more, reflect more and share more. All very positive qualities in which I feel are shaping this new and improved version of myself. In extending onto this, I am now going to make a point of taking my camera everywhere I go, to encourage me to pay more attention to my surroundings.